Shi Yong, i know you wont be able to see this but i really feel bad for what i did to you last night, and the way i treated you for the past few years.
i dont know what gotten into me last night, i couldnt control myself and let my emotions control me.
the sentence you yell at me yesterday kept repeating in my mind. yea, we were really very close when we were young, i do miss those days too, where we will play cards, and play combat soldiers figurine together. i dont know why we landed up like this, how i wish theres a chance for me to go back in time, and i will do anything to prevent the present.
i dont know if you remember but i used to hug you to sleep during our afternoon naps, feed you, and rub our faces together. but now, all i can feel is how much you hate me. i can see from those eyes you looked at me yesterday, so full of harted.
maybe if ive treated you the way you should be treated, dote you since young, you wont be like this. maybe you will be a good student, you wont pick up those bad habits, and we will always hang out together. or maybe you would be the one chasing me home in the streets,instead. i know its too much too ask for you to forgive me straight away, but you have to know what youre doing is seriously wrong.
im sorry for the way i treated you but i dosent mean what youve done is right.
i will still have to be strict with you, scold you and do whats necessary.
i will have to be the "bad guy", if not i cant imagine what your future will be like if this goes on.
Shi Yong, i hope one day you will really understand what youre doing and change for the good, it dosent matter if you still treat me as your brother.
but one thing for sure, no matter what happens to you, your kor kor, your family will always be there for you.